A year ago today I was packing up my life. The life that I knew was about to completely change into something unrecognizable. I was aware this change was going to happen, but when it did happen I didn't nearly know how it would feel.
A year ago today I was a mom of one darling 2 year old. I lived in Chicago. I had a part-time job at Galter LifeCenter. I spent my weekends running with that 2 year old in his stroller, and my nights having friends over for wine before my much earlier bedtime.
Today, I live in a house. In the suburbs. I have a backyard, that is all mine (well "ours"). I live close to a majority of my family. Oh, and I have 3 kids. I have also just offered my first full time job since becoming a mom. My life has flipped upside down.
Having 3 kids was quite the adjustment. You simply do not have enough hands anymore. However, once the dust settled, my slightly bigger family is everything I never thought I wanted. My life is this State Farm commerical:
I said all these things. I was so sure of myself and my future. I was NEVER getting married. I loved having no one to answer to, I loved not having to worry about stupid jealous boys. I was going to be independent and dating forever. Then I met Brad. Well, we all know how that ended. So fine, I got married, but we weren't having kids. We were nomads. We needed to up and move at a moment's notice. We had to have the freedom to travel europe or take a quick trip to Vegas. Then we had Stetson and he became our everything. But that was it, no more. Well, ok, one more. We'll give Stetson a sibling. They can grow up together, have someone to lean on when mom and dad are being CRAAAZZY! But we will still be that small, hip family that raises our kids in the city and takes public transportation to the grocery store. Then we found out it was twins. All of a sudden our perfect sized apartment seemed so tiny. And the schools weren't good enough, and the car wasn't big enough, and we needed Help!
So fine, I got married. I had a kid, and then a couple more. I left the city. BUT, I have still yet to cave on the minivan - you can't make me!!
All that being said, one year ago my life was so full, but today it is so much fuller. As soon as you think your heart can't expand anymore, somehow it does. Maybe that's why I always find myself having to catch my breath after a sweet hug from Stetson, or a darling giggle from Vienna, or a squishy, full mouth smile from Kellan, because my heart just swelled so big, my lungs were left with little room.
So it begins. Another chapter in our lives. So far this life has brought me many great blessings, and although I'm scared and nervous and excited and everything all at once, I don't doubt that this chapter won't be as great as the last.
And this song just came on while typing this post. Since all my kids took my husbands blue eyes - I find it very fitting. I love this family so much!
Not so much an update as a reflection, until the next update, enjoy these babies :)
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